Many of us have started to feel the wear and tear of running the household, raising kids, teaching our kids, driving to workshops or sports, and trying to be a good spouse or partner.Where did the enthusiasm and anticipation for the new year and new curriculum go? You are not alone.
Homeschool teachers and classroom teachers face this struggle. Yes, even the "professionals" go through cycles of anticipation, disillusionment, and rejuvenation. As a mentor for new teachers to the profession, I often show my "newbs" the chart to the right and tell them that all teachers feel this way, go through these emotions. It doesn't mean that you aren't meant to homeschool or that you are not doing a good job.
It means that you have put your heart and soul into an imperfect process. It means you care so deeply for your children that you want the best for them. It means you are a thoughtful, reflective teacher who is constantly thinking about the how and why of teaching.
It means you shouldn't quit!
Take a 10 minute bath, check out a book from the library for YOU to read to yourself, connect with a friend online, attend a church group you enjoy, go to Target all ALONE, or walk for ten minutes at night before the sun goes down. The point is that you need to do something for yourself before you can be fully present and ready for the rest of your day or the rest of your school year.
I have also taken a break from lesson planning, assessing, getting his work ready for the next day, answering work emails (okay maybe a few emails!), and thinking about how to be better, more.
Yesterday, I played with Robert and his friends, laid out by the pool, and watched way too much Housewives. I don't think I did anything productive. Oh wait, I did mail out a letter.
Giving in to my need for self care has felt a lot better than giving into my own self doubt.
So take a few deep breaths this Spring Break. Enjoy a moment for yourself. Give someone an extra hug. Enjoy a moment with your favorite cup of coffee or sit in the sun.
Next school year, is only a few months away.